disatisfaction

despite what the title of this entry would suggest, I'm in a good mood, but it's the kind of mood where I'm delighting in my intense longing for more, because I haven't felt this alive in some time. I have to be careful, because Satan knows my weaknesses, he knows how to attack me, but I am firmly set on Christ. I'm ready to go. Mainly it's because of a good friend who emailed me. The faith God has blessed her with is so beautiful, and she encourages me and challenges me everytime I talk to her or even think of her. She is the epitome of the "iron sharpens iron" verse. And Hebrews 10:24-25. I want to be that for someone. I pray that God would increase my faith so that others would see Him, and if they see me instead of Him I will pray harder that I would become invisible, because I am nothing and He is everything. Everything I am revolves around Him. He makes me who I am.

God I want to be challenged to know You more and to dig more deeply into Your word and Your purposes.

"But I am the Lord your God,
who brought you out of Egypt.
You shall acknowledge no god but Me,
no Savior except Me.
I cared for you in the desert,
in the land of burning heat.
When I fed them, they were satisfied;
when they were satisfied, they became proud;
then they forgot me.
So I will come upon them like a lion,
like a leopard I will lurk by the path.
Like a bear robbed of her cubs,
I will attack them and rip them open.
Like a lion, I will devour them;
a wild animal will tear them apart." Hosea 13:4-8

Sounds almost cruel, doesn't it? But if brokenness is what it takes for me to see the goodness of the Lord, if He has to rip my idols from my hands so that I fall flat on my face, I pray that He would do it. Better the little amount of pain for a moment in order to know the lifetime of infinite joy it is to see and experience the glory of Jesus Christ. Isn't that what Paul means when he says he rejoices in his sufferings? That's the fight for joy. Joy is a Person. Truth is a Person. Life is found in one Person.