my computer is restored
OHMIGOODNESS. After trial after trial with our stupid internet connection things are finally fixed (finally in both senses). I am SO GLAD. I mean it's great that my university has good computer lab access, but there's just something about sitting in a room with a bunch of random people that makes you not want to use the lab. Or maybe it's just me.
Anyway...so much has changed since I last wrote-I'm going to East Asia, which I am so incredibly excited about and which is becoming more real to me each day. This Friday I go to Omaha for a "briefing" of sorts, and I get to meet my team there. Mostly, I feel like God is changing everything in my life. I had to let go of a friendship, because it was going someplace not good. Maybe it would have been ok for awhile, but had I not obeyed God I would have had a horrible feeling the whole time and it would have ended sooner or later anyway. He doesn't want a girl who's going to put him second. And I don't want a man who would put me first. Sanctification is hard, but disobedience is harder. Last night, though, I went to Travis, and the India team got back and they were telling us all about their time there and it was amazing and I really want to go. I just want to go everywhere. But for now I am confident that East Asia is where God wants me (this summer anyway, I'm here in Minnesota for a reason too), but I am praying that He will point me in the right direction during the trip. I just want to be out there. I have seen in the past few days an increase in my awareness for every single person's need for Christ. It's rampant, and it's heartbreaking. But it makes me see that my life is only a breath, and it's useless simply to try to gain personal happiness above God's glory. In my experience, God's glory is personal happiness, more than that, it's JOY. A deeper joy than I could ever have imagined existed.
A thought that occured to me this morning, as I was walking back from the Rec, is that I might be keeping people at arm's length (guys especially). I don't know. I need to think more, and write things down more, because I always forget everything, or most things, that I come to conclusions on.
Anyway...so much has changed since I last wrote-I'm going to East Asia, which I am so incredibly excited about and which is becoming more real to me each day. This Friday I go to Omaha for a "briefing" of sorts, and I get to meet my team there. Mostly, I feel like God is changing everything in my life. I had to let go of a friendship, because it was going someplace not good. Maybe it would have been ok for awhile, but had I not obeyed God I would have had a horrible feeling the whole time and it would have ended sooner or later anyway. He doesn't want a girl who's going to put him second. And I don't want a man who would put me first. Sanctification is hard, but disobedience is harder. Last night, though, I went to Travis, and the India team got back and they were telling us all about their time there and it was amazing and I really want to go. I just want to go everywhere. But for now I am confident that East Asia is where God wants me (this summer anyway, I'm here in Minnesota for a reason too), but I am praying that He will point me in the right direction during the trip. I just want to be out there. I have seen in the past few days an increase in my awareness for every single person's need for Christ. It's rampant, and it's heartbreaking. But it makes me see that my life is only a breath, and it's useless simply to try to gain personal happiness above God's glory. In my experience, God's glory is personal happiness, more than that, it's JOY. A deeper joy than I could ever have imagined existed.
A thought that occured to me this morning, as I was walking back from the Rec, is that I might be keeping people at arm's length (guys especially). I don't know. I need to think more, and write things down more, because I always forget everything, or most things, that I come to conclusions on.
posted by The Girl With Something to Say @ 2/25/2005 02:46:00 PM
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