Jesus is so good, I can barely comprehend it. God is all merciful, enabling me to totally ace my Greek quiz that I didn't study for until this morning, and I totally didn't deserve His help, but praise Jesus! He sustains me, every hour, even when I am apathetic toward Him. I am realizing just how grave a sin my apathy is. How can I be that way towards the Sovereign Lord who saves us from death?
Last night I talked with my mom, and I ended up bawling for a good 15 or 20 minutes after the conversation. It's not anything she did or said, it's just how she sounded. She was so tired, and worn out and is burdened with her life, with no one to be there for her and lead her and support her. She's trying to do it on her own, and it makes me so sad. But she mentioned a woman at work who's a believer, and I am praying that God would build their relationship and let this woman be an encouragement to my mom, even in her own struggles (she is older and has just been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes). She also said my brother asked her about her and dad getting a divorce, and that was awful to hear. Obviously, as he's getting older, he's noticing more and more of the strife between my parents. My mom assured my brother that she wasn't going anywhere, but again...it just hurts to know that already he's worrying about that. An 11 year old kid shouldn't have to worry about that. I miss them, I miss my family so much. God is good, and He is faithful, and He loves them more than I do...which boggles my mind, because I really love them a lot. I can't fathom God's love. He is faithful, and Sovereign, and there, He's working in them. I can see it. No one catch snatch them out of His hands. In my reading over the past couple of days, I came across these verses in Psalm 66 and 68:
8 Praise our God, O peoples, let the sound of his praise be heard;
9 he has preserved our lives and kept our feet from slipping.
10 For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver.
11 You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs.
12 You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water,
but you brought us to a place of abundance.
-Ps 66
19 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.
Selah 20 Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign LORD comes escape from death. -Ps 68
Talk about God speaking into your circumstances. Between those verses and Matthew 4:19, I'm beginning to feel what Jesus was talking about when He said it would cost something to follow Him. But Romans 8:18 comes to mind in that circumstance: "For I consider that our present sufferings are not worth being compared with the glory that will be revealed in us." And no matter what I go through, it will never compare with what He did for me.
Last night I talked with my mom, and I ended up bawling for a good 15 or 20 minutes after the conversation. It's not anything she did or said, it's just how she sounded. She was so tired, and worn out and is burdened with her life, with no one to be there for her and lead her and support her. She's trying to do it on her own, and it makes me so sad. But she mentioned a woman at work who's a believer, and I am praying that God would build their relationship and let this woman be an encouragement to my mom, even in her own struggles (she is older and has just been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes). She also said my brother asked her about her and dad getting a divorce, and that was awful to hear. Obviously, as he's getting older, he's noticing more and more of the strife between my parents. My mom assured my brother that she wasn't going anywhere, but again...it just hurts to know that already he's worrying about that. An 11 year old kid shouldn't have to worry about that. I miss them, I miss my family so much. God is good, and He is faithful, and He loves them more than I do...which boggles my mind, because I really love them a lot. I can't fathom God's love. He is faithful, and Sovereign, and there, He's working in them. I can see it. No one catch snatch them out of His hands. In my reading over the past couple of days, I came across these verses in Psalm 66 and 68:
8 Praise our God, O peoples, let the sound of his praise be heard;
9 he has preserved our lives and kept our feet from slipping.
10 For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver.
11 You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs.
12 You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water,
but you brought us to a place of abundance.
-Ps 66
19 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.
Selah 20 Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign LORD comes escape from death. -Ps 68
Talk about God speaking into your circumstances. Between those verses and Matthew 4:19, I'm beginning to feel what Jesus was talking about when He said it would cost something to follow Him. But Romans 8:18 comes to mind in that circumstance: "For I consider that our present sufferings are not worth being compared with the glory that will be revealed in us." And no matter what I go through, it will never compare with what He did for me.
posted by The Girl With Something to Say @ 3/21/2005 09:28:00 PM
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