well, another night, another moment avoiding Greek homework, which I will resume after posting this blog.

today I was convicted on some of the reasons why I love God. There's still so much of me that wants the value of my salvation to be centered around me. It's like the selfishness never ends. but I was reading the introduction of this book, and I was totally just pierced by the Holy Spirit. but it's good to be convicted like that. hard but good. I hope it will stay that way. May He expel all pride and selfish ambitions.

I was also encouraged, because God used me (again) when I was completely unprepared (all the more for His glory). So, yeah...it's exciting for God to fulfill His purpose in me. He uses the foolish to shame the wise, and the stink if I'm not foolish. I'm completely blessed to be living among the community of believers I live among. and it's exciting to see the knowledge of what joy it is to glorify Him in the hearts of younger believers. it's nights like this where I am absolutely positive that I could do this my whole life. I really want to. I want to invest in women for the glory of God. It's so funny how the more you focus on loving God and less on what to do to please God, the clearer your vision gets on how to glorify Him. and I think that's because the relationship is what makes glorifying Him possible. You can't do first. You have to love first. It's a simple concept that is really hard to grasp. I already know I'm going to have to relearn it a million times in my life, but I'm ok with that because I like learning things from God. He's a good teacher.