questions I have to ask myself today

there are questions I have to ask myself today:

1) is Jesus enough?
2) can I let go?
3) will I let God be my Isaiah 62?
4) will I live passionately, singly for His glory, no matter whether I live for 60 more years or die tomorrow, whether I am single for the rest of my life or whether I get married, whether I go on staff with Navs or work in an office...

I could go on. In the face of disappointment, brokenness, hurt, joy, blessing, hardships, persecution, trials, abundance, desolation...will I open my heart and ask God to be the One who keeps me breathing?

He's calling me to more! What is this? I don't get, I can't explain this. What is it that's been happening in my heart the past couple of months? What is this transformation?

He hems me in so that I might WAIT for Him, because He is better than a husband, better than an earthly dad, better than being super skinny and beautiful, better than always getting good grades, better than a nice house, better than always getting what I want

He is better. What is this joy?