Two things, both funny:
1) I fell on the ice today. I stepped out of Bordertown, my foot hit the ice, and boom! girl goes down. fortunately there was no one around to witness this feat of grace. :)
2) I saw the giant snoglobe from my neighbor's yard on TV today. It was in a KMart commercial, I believe. I laughed, because I remembered my stealth mission.
Other than that, I had a great day listening to Piper talk about prayer. Prayer is one of the things that's been on my heart lately, the other is forgiveness. I don't have much more to say on that right now, because my head hurts. I'll write more when I can think.
Also, I went to Aldi for groceries today. I felt like a "big girl" because I went all by myself. It was nice, because I moseyed through the grocery store without feeling guilty for holding any of my roommates up. I think I need alone time. I mean, I am most definitely an extrovert and I have noticed this semester especially how being around people energizes me, but I also just need time to myself. I wonder, is this selfish? Maybe I should live alone for a year and see what it's like. Or maybe not, because I can just see myself becoming a hermit. Seriously.
Back to prayer, I made my official prayer list today. Official doesn't mean permanent, it's just I feel like I made progress by actually writing it down. I think praying with a list is a good idea, because otherwise I forget the needs of the people I'm praying for. I've been listening to a lot of Piper's sermons on prayer lately. And today I realized that prayer is breath-taking and should be my very breath. That's right: I think that I ought to breathe prayer. Because I need God all the time. ALL THE TIME. For every temptation, for every desire, for every task. I need Him so I can feel the horror of my sinfulness when I try not to need Him. I long to know the lengths and heights and depths to which I need Him, because then I think I will know Him better. Really, I just want to experience His love more fully. Sins pleasures are pleasures indeed, but at the culmination of sin's pleasure comes the deepest realization of emptiness. And it's in that moment that I see. Why do I sin? What can it offer me? Only insatiable, perverted desire that gets worse the more I acquire what I desire, ultimately leading to destruction.
There's another thought from Piper that makes so much sense: when we talk about sin, especially with non-believers, it's important to stress that sin is not just horizontal (person to person) but the gravest sin is vertical (person to God). Because who were we made for? God. By whom? God. For what purpose? to display His infinite glory. But I'm sinful, I can't not be, how can I possibly live for that end? I can't. Then how can I possibly know God? through Christ alone. My Jesus. How am I so lucky that I can call Him mine, and know that in turn I belong to Him? It's what I've wanted my whole life. To belong to someone. Isaiah 62, He calls me His, He pursues me without end to completion in perfection. How can I not be in love with a God like that? I can't, not now that I've tasted and seen. Man, I probably sound crazy, but "if I am out of my mind it is for Christ, if I am in my right mind it is for you, for Christ's love compels me."
My headache feels better.
1) I fell on the ice today. I stepped out of Bordertown, my foot hit the ice, and boom! girl goes down. fortunately there was no one around to witness this feat of grace. :)
2) I saw the giant snoglobe from my neighbor's yard on TV today. It was in a KMart commercial, I believe. I laughed, because I remembered my stealth mission.
Other than that, I had a great day listening to Piper talk about prayer. Prayer is one of the things that's been on my heart lately, the other is forgiveness. I don't have much more to say on that right now, because my head hurts. I'll write more when I can think.
Also, I went to Aldi for groceries today. I felt like a "big girl" because I went all by myself. It was nice, because I moseyed through the grocery store without feeling guilty for holding any of my roommates up. I think I need alone time. I mean, I am most definitely an extrovert and I have noticed this semester especially how being around people energizes me, but I also just need time to myself. I wonder, is this selfish? Maybe I should live alone for a year and see what it's like. Or maybe not, because I can just see myself becoming a hermit. Seriously.
Back to prayer, I made my official prayer list today. Official doesn't mean permanent, it's just I feel like I made progress by actually writing it down. I think praying with a list is a good idea, because otherwise I forget the needs of the people I'm praying for. I've been listening to a lot of Piper's sermons on prayer lately. And today I realized that prayer is breath-taking and should be my very breath. That's right: I think that I ought to breathe prayer. Because I need God all the time. ALL THE TIME. For every temptation, for every desire, for every task. I need Him so I can feel the horror of my sinfulness when I try not to need Him. I long to know the lengths and heights and depths to which I need Him, because then I think I will know Him better. Really, I just want to experience His love more fully. Sins pleasures are pleasures indeed, but at the culmination of sin's pleasure comes the deepest realization of emptiness. And it's in that moment that I see. Why do I sin? What can it offer me? Only insatiable, perverted desire that gets worse the more I acquire what I desire, ultimately leading to destruction.
There's another thought from Piper that makes so much sense: when we talk about sin, especially with non-believers, it's important to stress that sin is not just horizontal (person to person) but the gravest sin is vertical (person to God). Because who were we made for? God. By whom? God. For what purpose? to display His infinite glory. But I'm sinful, I can't not be, how can I possibly live for that end? I can't. Then how can I possibly know God? through Christ alone. My Jesus. How am I so lucky that I can call Him mine, and know that in turn I belong to Him? It's what I've wanted my whole life. To belong to someone. Isaiah 62, He calls me His, He pursues me without end to completion in perfection. How can I not be in love with a God like that? I can't, not now that I've tasted and seen. Man, I probably sound crazy, but "if I am out of my mind it is for Christ, if I am in my right mind it is for you, for Christ's love compels me."
My headache feels better.
posted by The Girl With Something to Say @ 11/30/2005 09:08:00 PM
1 Comments:
At 5:41 PM,
Anonymous said…
First of all, I like that your blog writing caused your headache to go away. Good stuff.
Second, I love your point about sin being primarily against God, not against man. This isn't something new to me, but I saw it in a new light in Mere Christianity (thanks Clive). Think about Jesus' offer to forgive the sins of people when he was physically walking on the earth. Unless He is God, this makes no sense. It isn't like He told the persons who sinned merely to go and seek reconciliation with the person they sinned against. Rather, Jesus' primary emphasis was on being the forgiver, as well as the one primarliy offended by the transgression. Anyway, I liked your entry on that.
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