come awake
it's funny to me how quickly life changes and how short the seasons really are. Like college. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was a freshman? Now I'm a senior about to graduate...hopefully. Ha. My life has done a 180 since graduating high school, and I have to wonder where it'll be four years from now. Maybe five is a better measure, though, since after this there will be no more school. Maybe.
I have to say, I hope things change as much or more in the next five years that they have in the past four. I hope I grow even more than I did in the past four years. But school coming to an end is scary. I have to admit, I am more than excited to be done with tests and homework. But I will be very sorry to leave college life. I've LOVED it. It's been so hard, but it's been so worth it. And that has more to do with Jesus and people than it does to do with all my book-learnin'. :) God has been FAITHFUL. So that being said, two things have changed since I last wrote:
1) I am not going to Montpellier, France in May, even though I'd still like to someday. (that rhyme was not intentional)
2) I am officially applying for EdgeCorps and waiting on the Lord for His will in this.
I've been thinking about John 10:10 (The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy, but I come that you may have life and have it to the full), and my only thought is that it is SO TRUE. I am experiencing both sides of that verse and it's so hard. I've been fighting against unbelief and blindness. Do you ever pray and feel like you're talking to a wall? I have and was and it was awful, but He's faithful-He was so good to me today. And I think, too, that some family things are coming to the surface...I think I have to deal with it. If I don't, I will fall away. So then, here comes the inevitable: I will deal. Because I can't fall away. Where else can I go? I literally will become nothing if I abandon Christ. Not that it's up to me anyway, thankfully. Because if it was, I would surely have abandoned everything by now. But no, God is sovereign, God alone has victory and power and strength to overcome the Enemy. But to live this- it's hard.
I have to say, I hope things change as much or more in the next five years that they have in the past four. I hope I grow even more than I did in the past four years. But school coming to an end is scary. I have to admit, I am more than excited to be done with tests and homework. But I will be very sorry to leave college life. I've LOVED it. It's been so hard, but it's been so worth it. And that has more to do with Jesus and people than it does to do with all my book-learnin'. :) God has been FAITHFUL. So that being said, two things have changed since I last wrote:
1) I am not going to Montpellier, France in May, even though I'd still like to someday. (that rhyme was not intentional)
2) I am officially applying for EdgeCorps and waiting on the Lord for His will in this.
I've been thinking about John 10:10 (The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy, but I come that you may have life and have it to the full), and my only thought is that it is SO TRUE. I am experiencing both sides of that verse and it's so hard. I've been fighting against unbelief and blindness. Do you ever pray and feel like you're talking to a wall? I have and was and it was awful, but He's faithful-He was so good to me today. And I think, too, that some family things are coming to the surface...I think I have to deal with it. If I don't, I will fall away. So then, here comes the inevitable: I will deal. Because I can't fall away. Where else can I go? I literally will become nothing if I abandon Christ. Not that it's up to me anyway, thankfully. Because if it was, I would surely have abandoned everything by now. But no, God is sovereign, God alone has victory and power and strength to overcome the Enemy. But to live this- it's hard.
posted by The Girl With Something to Say @ 1/23/2006 10:35:00 PM
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